So Fresh, So Clean

My hired cleaning help took on the very daunting task of cleaning Rob's bachelor pad yesterday. I gave her a very lenghty list of to do's and I wasn't sure if she would be able to get to it all. All day I was eager and also nervous to see the outcome. I went to check everything out after work and I was SO happy with her work. I walked in and the place looked and smelled AMAZING. A night and day transformation. 100% worth the investment. I could tell Rob didn't want to admit the place looked as good as it did but deep inside I know he appreciated the fact that I did this and his place, for the first time ever, is TRULY clean. Fingers crossed it stays this way going forward and I am able to maintain the cleanliness. I move the last of my things this evening. It's a bittersweet feeling. I've been on my own and taking care of myself for a long time and now I am entering a new chapter where it's no longer just me. I'm confident that Rob and I are making the right decision. We both admit that we are scared but also excited. I think it's perfectly normal and human to feel both emotions simultaneously.

10 months

Today is the 10th. 10 months ago today, I met Robert. To some, celebrating monthly anniversaries is silly... to me it's special as I never imagined I'd ever reach this point, with anyone. I love him. He loves me. It's that simple but even in that simplicity I get scared that tomorrow it could all fall apart. For now, I hold onto the truth that our love and relationship is strong and tomorrow will be what it will be.