Britney Love

Not sure why, but I have always been a Britney fan, even when she had her little melt down a few years back. The girl can't sing, live, but she sure can put on a show! I would know, I went and saw her 2 years ago on her Circus tour. One word: Amazing. I miss the old school Britney though... before her voice was over produced and auto tuned. Hit Me Baby One More Time was an instant hit, and still one of my favorite songs to rock out to in the car when on a road trip...



I will say, there was one live show she performed at where she totally killed it. This was Britney in her prime. The top of her game, and I still get goose bumps whenever I see it....



Femme Fatale came out today. Like any true fan, I bought the extended album with 4 bonus tracks. Overall I give the album a solid B-. 1/2 of the songs are great but then other 1/2 not so great. She's coming to the Xcel Center July 6th and you better believe I'll be going to see her again! Tickets are $96-$350 before taxes. Yikes. Birthday present??

Britney's back again bitches! Woot Woot!

Mixed up

It’s amazing to think how much one person’s life can change in a matter of 365 short days. A year ago today, I thought I had met my version of a fairytale. I dismissed the red flags and dove in heart first. I was truly blinded by “Love” and wanted so desperately for him to be the one, finally!! Looking back, I learned tremendous life lessons, but like any lessons of the heart, it comes at the cost of a lot of broken pieces. I know I made the right decision by letting him go, but I am still very torn on how I should feel emotionally about it. There are days when I feel sad and sorry for him. Clearly this guy is ill and not of sound mind if he goes about his life constantly lying to others and most importantly himself. You can’t help but feel a little empathy towards someone who desperately needs help. But lately I am more angry and bitter for all that he put me through. I gave him everything. I was completely and whole heartedly myself from day one. I was honest, true, vulnerable. I even cut out my best friend for him. Jealousy raged in his heart. There was emotional abuse, constant drama. We couldn’t go more then a week without some sort of fight or argument. I constantly had to assure him of my feelings and that I was 100% in the relationship with him. Yes, I am angry and bitter towards him but if I wanted to be honest with myself, I think I am more angry and bitter towards myself for tolerating such ill treatment as long as I did. The pieces are definitely broken. Trust is shattered and for someone who already had huge trust issues, this is something that I will take a long time to re-build, if at all. I have made many attempts to cut him out of my life completely yet he still manages to creep in. It’s hard to move on and heal when that person who broke your trust in people just wont leave you alone. My hope and prayer right now is that this time next year, I will be in a completely different place yet again but in a much more positive light. I am making all of the right steps, now I just need to be patient and trust that there is a plan and purpose in all of this.

Hang on tight

I have a blog crush. Her name is Becky and she is the author of Farmgirl Paints. She lives in Minnesota just southwest of the cities. You need to check out her blog and also her Etsy shop. She is a super talented artist and creates beautiful paintings along with necklaces and cuffs. I found her blog back in the Fall, ironically when everything was starting to happen with my Home. I don’t find this to be a coincidence but a part of God’s plan. Without her even realizing it, Becky has been such an inspiration to me through her stories, pictures, paintings and all around just being who she is. I had the privilege to meet her a few weeks back and asked her if she could make a painting for me and my new home. This is what she sent me… She titled it “Hang on tight.” A perfect theme for my new beginning.

Money Honey

It’s annual review time at work. The time when you are suppose to reflect back on the past years accomplishments and brag about yourself. This is something I’ve never been quite good at, bragging about how wonderful I am. I am in a support role for my job. I punch a time clock and I’m only allowed to work 40 hours a week. There are pros and cons to this type of job. One of the cons is the fact that bonuses were taken away from hourly employees. Since I support an entire team of salaried employees, this time of year can be rather annoying as everyone is so concerned with not only how much their raise is going to be, but how much their bonus check will be. It’s hard to just keep a smile on my face and pretend that it doesn’t really bother me, but deep inside it does.

Money is funny. The more you have, the more things you seem to find to spend it on, and you find yourself not having enough again. When it comes to annual review time and you find out that you are only getting x% increase, instead of being grateful and thankful for your job and an increase, you feel you deserve and are worth more. Greed and envy start to creep in and people’s ugly sides start to show.

In the last few years, I’ve had to learn many lessons when it comes to money. I can now honestly say that I am thankful I had to learn those lessons the hard way otherwise I would still be making those same mistakes. At the end of the day, life shouldn’t be about money. It shouldn’t be about how big your house is, what type of car you drive, clothes you wear, vacations you take, gifts you give/receive. Life is about living happily and comfortably within your means. You wake up, go to work, provide for yourself (and your family if that applies), go home and rest and do it all over again the next day. When you look at the big picture, as long as you have enough to live, that’s all you really ever need. Anything additional is just bonus, and those little bonuses in life should be earned by hard work and determination. I’ve never been afraid to work hard for something. Anything worth having in life should be earned. You appreciate it more when you realize just how hard you had to work for it.

R & R

I spent Saturday afternoon getting some much needed pampering done. An hour long massage followed by some TLC on my little feet. I left feeling refreshed and re-energized and vowed that I wouldn't be going another 5 plus years until my next Spa visit.

Why is it that the first thing we forget to do on our laundry list of items is take care of ourselves?? I am so guilty of this but have promised myself that going forward, I am making this my number one priority. For so long I have placed others needs and happiness above my own and it has left me broken, hurt, and frustrated. No better time to make this be a change in my life then right now, when all I seem to be facing are BIG changes. It feels good to say that I feel good, because I do. I have complete peace in my heart that I have made the right desicion and will continue to follow this feeling until it leads me to another chapter, which I will gladly open when the time is right.

Happy Monday!