Seeing the miracles

I’ve been surrounded by a lot of negativity lately and unfortunately that’s all I can seem to blog about. Believe it or, I strive to be the total opposite of being negative. I try to see the good in people, in situations, in life but sometimes it’s just to effing hard to smile and see the good, when your head and your heart feel otherwise. The Holidays have always been a rather difficult time for me for many reasons. Even though it is suppose to be a joyful and happy time, for me it’s a very lonely and hard time. This year is no exception. I have a lot on my plate and I’m just trying to digest everything.

As I reflect back on 2010, it unfortunately has been one of the most difficult years to date in my adult life. As much as I am looking forward to it ending, I am even more anxious and terrified of what 2011 will bring. I’ve always been a sentimental person and tend to look back more when I should be looking forward. I tend to remember good memories, bad memories, silly memories, and life changing memories. I am trying so hard to just focus on good. Despite a very emotionally exhausting year, God brought me to it and is continuing to bring me through it for a reason. I’m trying to see the miracles. The everyday miracles that life brings us each and every day. That even when my world is caving in that there is still hope and there is still miracles happening to me and around me.

I’m not sure what my future holds at this point but I am trying my hardest to stay positive and to see the good. The everyday miracles and to be thankful for everything I have.


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