The past 9 months have been an roller coaster of emotions. Good news, followed by bad news followed by good news followed by more bad news. It’s been never ending. It’s like a bad pregnancy that just wont end. I’m beyond over due. My body is swollen with worry, regret, anger, stress, anxiety etc… it’s become increasingly more difficult to concentrate, sleep, relax, let alone just breathe. I am reaching the end of this long and painful journey. Closing is scheduled for next Wednesday at 12:30pm. As excited as I am that I have been given a date, I am still cautiously optimistic as until those papers are signed, keys handed over, transaction accepted and complete, I will not raise a glass in celebration.
The past 18 months have been rough, tough, and everything in between. Emotionally, I feel weak but mentally I am realizing how incredibly strong I really am. I have learned tremendous amounts of patience throughout everything, and just when I think I can’t bare to stand another minute of it all, I somehow find the strength to keep moving forward. I have learned to find hope in hopelessness, joy in negativity, happiness during times of sorrow and uncertainty. God has tested my trust in Him and I can honestly say I feel and have felt myself change, for the better, throughout this whole process. Though my thoughts and plans on how this SHOULD’VE turned out are different, His plans always outweigh my own.
It is with every faith and hope I have inside me, that this time next week, I will no longer be a homeowner. A bittersweet feeling but one I am happy to feel none the less. This chapter is ready to be shut, and my new, bright, positively filled future anxiously awaits me.
1 comment:
well yay! oh i'm so happy for you girlie. still waiting for things to work out on our end, but like you said HE has a plan. just have to trust!
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