I'm Ready.

You know you are an emotional girl when a commercial makes you get teary eyed. This one did the trick last night...



I made the decision a LONG time ago, that whenever my time came to become a Mom, I would document my pregnancy, their birth, first year of life, all through High School and would plan on giving them the journal I kept for them as a Graduation present. When Google came out with that commercial, it was almost like they read my mind. I've seen it a few times and smile, but last night I saw it again, and I was sad.

I went to my Mom's for dinner last night and was complaining to her how I didn't want to go to work the next day. In fact I don't want to go to work anymore, ever. I told her that what I really wanted was to be married, have babies and stay at home with them. At first she thought I was kidding, but in truth I was very serious. She did what any Mom would do. She just smiled, and said "Well, Jess... that's not even close to being an option for you right now so you just need to stick to Plan B which is taking care of yourself." Oh Booo, Mom.

I may or may have not mentioned in previous posts how much I desire to fall in love, get married, and have children. With each passing day, month, year that desire only burns deeper in my heart. I can feel it, I can taste it. I envision what it will be like. Trust me, it's not all rainbows and butterflies. There are plenty of thorns on those roses bushes, but to me... deep in my heart and soul, it is so worth it. I want it so badly. I'm ready. I'm SO ready. I was ready, yesterday.