I don't know why I'm letting that D-bag of a guy who emailed me last week control my emotions. Ever since that little episode I've just been really bitter towards love and finding a special someone. I've convinced myself that there are no good guys out there and I will slowly turn into a crazy cat lady and die a lonely miserable life.
Like I've said a million times before (my apologies for being a broken record) but I just didn't picture that my life would be the way it is at this point. I honestly thought I would be married with a kid and I'm no where near any of those things. It makes me really sad to think that there is a possibility that it could never happen for me either. I did go out to dinner last night with a good friend Jessie(God bless her heart for listen to me bitch and complain) and she did cheer me up and make me feel like I am worth dating/marrying. Still... for whatever reason, I'm not feeling it. I've somehow got it imprinted on my brain that I'm un-marriable and maybe unlovable? It's crazy talk, I know but these are very real and honest thoughts I have from time to time and all too often, especially lately. It's hard to stay positive when time after time I strike out. How many frogs do I need to kiss (or get a nasty email from) before my imperfectly perfect Prince finds me or vice versa? How does one go about finding a true love anymore?
Anyways... I've decided that this being bitter thing really isn't a good look on me so I'm going to try, REALLY REALLY hard to be more positive. Supposedly when you are positive, that will attract positive things? Hmmmm we shall see. So I will leave you all with 5 things that are great about me to kick start my positivity.
1. I'm a good person
2. I have a good heart
3. I'm caring
4. I'm loving
5. I'm a freakin' catch!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
And this is why I should give up dating...
As of this morning, I closed my Plenty of Fish account all because of this email I received from another fish:
"Hi... your friend in one of your pictures is hot, is she single?"
It's hard to remain positive about dating and finding a good guy when you get an upsetting email like this. I hate complaining about being single and how much I wish I could find a great guy, fall in love and get married but damn it... I'm ready!!! I've been ready for a long time now and the older I'm getting, the more panicked I am that it's not going to happen.
I just needed to vent. Tonight I will be getting a McDonald's Supersize Big Mac Meal, Chocolate Malt, and sit around and feel sorry for myself. Tomorrow will be a new day, a better day, and hopefully Mr. Right will go ahead and find me already.
"Hi... your friend in one of your pictures is hot, is she single?"
It's hard to remain positive about dating and finding a good guy when you get an upsetting email like this. I hate complaining about being single and how much I wish I could find a great guy, fall in love and get married but damn it... I'm ready!!! I've been ready for a long time now and the older I'm getting, the more panicked I am that it's not going to happen.
I just needed to vent. Tonight I will be getting a McDonald's Supersize Big Mac Meal, Chocolate Malt, and sit around and feel sorry for myself. Tomorrow will be a new day, a better day, and hopefully Mr. Right will go ahead and find me already.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
I love my job!!
My boss nominated me for an award at work today!! Below is her write up and a picture of my award! I love my job, I love my boss! I am so lucky to have a job let alone one that I love and enjoy and actually WANT to come to work everyday!!
Apparel & Accessories PD&D would like to recognize JESSICA SPARLING with the award for EXECUTION & ORGANIZING.
One of the many reasons Jessica has become the “go to” person for NIT Design is her awesome organization. Not only does she keep the TEAM organized by being proactive and getting meetings out on their calendars well in advance, she also has shown a real “can-do” attitude by volunteering to help with many different things such as keeping the trend library in order, and assisting with color palette organization and trend board construction. Our Art Team has had to utilize many freelance designers, and Jessica has been in charge of keeping track of all of the contractors and monitoring that budget. Jess is a real asset to NIT Design, and we all love the sense of community she brings to our team! Congratulations, Jessica!
Apparel & Accessories PD&D would like to recognize JESSICA SPARLING with the award for EXECUTION & ORGANIZING.
One of the many reasons Jessica has become the “go to” person for NIT Design is her awesome organization. Not only does she keep the TEAM organized by being proactive and getting meetings out on their calendars well in advance, she also has shown a real “can-do” attitude by volunteering to help with many different things such as keeping the trend library in order, and assisting with color palette organization and trend board construction. Our Art Team has had to utilize many freelance designers, and Jessica has been in charge of keeping track of all of the contractors and monitoring that budget. Jess is a real asset to NIT Design, and we all love the sense of community she brings to our team! Congratulations, Jessica!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I'm quite the catch, for a perfect Match
No... I didn't sign up for Match.com (thinking about it though... POF has been less then desireable). I donated blood today!! I was super excited when I found out I was able to donate today as the last three times I've tried, my Iron levels have been too low. Donating blood is one of the most selfless things one can do. It takes 30 minutes of your time and you help save a life! Plus, you get really yummy snacks and get to watch movies while you donate! A little fun fact... did you know that a 4 regular oreos have 10% of the daily value of Iron??! Needless to say, I enjoyed some Oreos last night to boost my chances for a higher Iron level!
Monday, October 19, 2009
A whole lot of the same
Life has been busy. Lots of work, not much time for play. I've really kicked it into high gear with this living on a budget thing. Wah. It's good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself through this whole process and I'm sure I will continue to learn and grow for the next 12-18 months (predicted amount of time it will take me to pay this stupid SOB Bank of America line of Credit off... f!)Speaking of Bank of America, I heard this morning they are paying out their big investment bankers and estimated 30 billion dollars in bonuses. Guess who's paying that?? Ummm, me. I could be mistaken but wasn't BOA one of the MANY banks that were bailed out by the Government last year when the market crashed? I have many opinions regarding this little fact. Hmmmm... guess some people never learn.
Pet sitting has really been picking up which is good. I have a pet sitting job every weekend for the next 5 weeks. Yikes. I keep focusing on the "How much money you will be making" and not so much on the "You wont have anytime to see your family or friends" part. I'm telling you, this whole being a grown up thing really is a lot of work. I still try to make time for myself but lately that just consists of going to bed on time. It's amazing what 8 hours of sleep can do you for you.
Speaking of pet sitting, I had to deliver some feedback to a client telling them that I could no longer watch their animals in the future. It was really hard for me to do but I figured my time and sanity is worth a lot more then dealing with 2 dogs that rise my blood pressure.
Plenty of Fish is turning sour. There are so many rotten fish out there it's depressing. My account is still open but I am not really actively searching anymore. The few guys I have met or communicated with are worth my time for the first few emails, phone calls or even dates but then they turn into your typical male and start playing mind games. Not a fan. I just want a straight forward, honest guy who can make me laugh. Apparently that has become too much to ask for. I'm still a hopeFUL romantic though. I've gotta believe he is out there for me. Hopefully he is out there thinking the same thing about me, too.
I can't believe it's the middle of October already. It sounds so cliche but every year I get older, the faster time goes. You blink and you've aged 5 years. Since I'm a planner by nature I get a little panicked that I haven't accomplished so many of my goals by this point in my life. With each day, week, month, and year flying by even faster then the ones before, it doesn't make things any easier. I'm trying not to get too worked up about it and just go with the flow more. My "To Do" list will be never ending. I just need to learn to appreciate things now and worry about tomorrow when it comes. Easier said then done. That is one thing that I will always struggle with and the one thing I want so badly to overcome.
On a happier note I would just like to say that I truly appreciate and admire the guys out there that still have their manners. I was walking from the parking garage at work and the guy ahead of me held the door for me, and even let me exit the elevator before him. I just think it is so wonderful that there are still some gentlemen out there who know how to treat a lady even if they are not romantically involved or interested in them. For the record, the guy was super cute but had a wedding ring on. Damn.
That's it for now. Back to work!
Pet sitting has really been picking up which is good. I have a pet sitting job every weekend for the next 5 weeks. Yikes. I keep focusing on the "How much money you will be making" and not so much on the "You wont have anytime to see your family or friends" part. I'm telling you, this whole being a grown up thing really is a lot of work. I still try to make time for myself but lately that just consists of going to bed on time. It's amazing what 8 hours of sleep can do you for you.
Speaking of pet sitting, I had to deliver some feedback to a client telling them that I could no longer watch their animals in the future. It was really hard for me to do but I figured my time and sanity is worth a lot more then dealing with 2 dogs that rise my blood pressure.
Plenty of Fish is turning sour. There are so many rotten fish out there it's depressing. My account is still open but I am not really actively searching anymore. The few guys I have met or communicated with are worth my time for the first few emails, phone calls or even dates but then they turn into your typical male and start playing mind games. Not a fan. I just want a straight forward, honest guy who can make me laugh. Apparently that has become too much to ask for. I'm still a hopeFUL romantic though. I've gotta believe he is out there for me. Hopefully he is out there thinking the same thing about me, too.
I can't believe it's the middle of October already. It sounds so cliche but every year I get older, the faster time goes. You blink and you've aged 5 years. Since I'm a planner by nature I get a little panicked that I haven't accomplished so many of my goals by this point in my life. With each day, week, month, and year flying by even faster then the ones before, it doesn't make things any easier. I'm trying not to get too worked up about it and just go with the flow more. My "To Do" list will be never ending. I just need to learn to appreciate things now and worry about tomorrow when it comes. Easier said then done. That is one thing that I will always struggle with and the one thing I want so badly to overcome.
On a happier note I would just like to say that I truly appreciate and admire the guys out there that still have their manners. I was walking from the parking garage at work and the guy ahead of me held the door for me, and even let me exit the elevator before him. I just think it is so wonderful that there are still some gentlemen out there who know how to treat a lady even if they are not romantically involved or interested in them. For the record, the guy was super cute but had a wedding ring on. Damn.
That's it for now. Back to work!
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