I don't know why I'm letting that D-bag of a guy who emailed me last week control my emotions. Ever since that little episode I've just been really bitter towards love and finding a special someone. I've convinced myself that there are no good guys out there and I will slowly turn into a crazy cat lady and die a lonely miserable life.
Like I've said a million times before (my apologies for being a broken record) but I just didn't picture that my life would be the way it is at this point. I honestly thought I would be married with a kid and I'm no where near any of those things. It makes me really sad to think that there is a possibility that it could never happen for me either. I did go out to dinner last night with a good friend Jessie(God bless her heart for listen to me bitch and complain) and she did cheer me up and make me feel like I am worth dating/marrying. Still... for whatever reason, I'm not feeling it. I've somehow got it imprinted on my brain that I'm un-marriable and maybe unlovable? It's crazy talk, I know but these are very real and honest thoughts I have from time to time and all too often, especially lately. It's hard to stay positive when time after time I strike out. How many frogs do I need to kiss (or get a nasty email from) before my imperfectly perfect Prince finds me or vice versa? How does one go about finding a true love anymore?
Anyways... I've decided that this being bitter thing really isn't a good look on me so I'm going to try, REALLY REALLY hard to be more positive. Supposedly when you are positive, that will attract positive things? Hmmmm we shall see. So I will leave you all with 5 things that are great about me to kick start my positivity.
1. I'm a good person
2. I have a good heart
3. I'm caring
4. I'm loving
5. I'm a freakin' catch!
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If it makes you feel any better, the other week at Walmart I was wiping off my cart after I entered the door with a sanitizer wipe and then a man just came by and grabbed the cart from me thinking...I was a greeter. (mortified!). I stood there dazed and looked around like, "Did anybody just see that?!"
Do I look like a Walmart greeter?! I mean I probably looked like hell that day, but c'mon!
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