This past weekend was my first weekend off from all of my jobs in over 2 months! I was excited of the idea of not having to run around taking care of animals or working for the City, but the freedom also left me a little panicked. I felt like I was missing or late for something.
Friday night I just hung low at home. Took a bath, read my latest InStyle magazine and went to bed early. Saturday my mom and I ran around and did some shopping. (She shopped, I was there for the ride) Saturday night I ended up going out with some friends to The Loop. I've heard good things about this place and overall, I had a good time. I did however miss the memo that you need to be 5'9, 110lbs and wear leggings with heals or boots with an oversized sweater or shirt paired with fashion scarf. Needless to say, I felt a little out of place and fat and ugly. Why are there some girls out there that seem their only sole purpose is to make us feel bad about ourselves? I did manage to enjoy a few glasses of wine but ended up leaving around 11:30 and called it a night.
Sunday I slept in a little bit and headed to Grandma's in Pine City. She is always so excited when someone comes to visit. We chatted about nothing in particular and had some lunch at the A&W. Everytime I see her now, she talks more and more about "When I'm not here anymore" and her latest thing is "I'm going to pre-pay my funeral, I want to be cremated." Everytime I leave her, I always get a surge of sadness and usually cry a little bit on the way home. I never know if that will be the last time I see her or talk to her. I always try to make the most of the time we spend together. She is my everything, my rock, my #1 cheerleader. The thought of not having her in my life truly makes me sick. She is 81 going on 82 but I still have a lot of hope that she has plenty of life left. I really just want her to see me get married and have my first baby. I better get on that huh?
Sunday night I stayed busy cleaning and doing laundry. My typical Sunday afternoon/evening chores. I took another bath and started to watch for the 10th millionith time the Sex and the City series. I had some more wine and a cupcake for dinner. Healthy!
I guess my weekend "Off" was filled with busyness. I'm kind of like the engergizer bunny... I just keep going and going. I think it may be time for a vacation. I can't truly relax and settle down unless I am away from the hustle and bustle of my life. Anyone have an extra $2000 they'd like to give me so I can go away somewhere?
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