2nd chance

Yesterday was rough. I was still feeling the stings from what happened on Tuesday night but was able to get a few hours of sleep in which helped me keep my composure. I made it into work as well, which helped keep me distracted although my mind was very much elsewhere. I made it through the day and as I was wrapping up my day, my phone rings and it is Robert. In the back of my mind, I knew he would call but I wasn't expecting it so soon. I answered and he said "I'm sorry. I made a huge mistake. I am so in love with you but I got scared." I immediately started crying. I was happy, relieved but also scared. We both agreed to talk through things in person which is exactly what we did last night.

I was nervous to see him again as the last time I did, I was a complete and utter mess. He hugged me and kissed me and hugged me some more. We talked about what happened. He admits that he was completely overwhelmed with his feelings and didn't handle them the right way. He also admits that he needs help to deal with issues from his past because it is affecting his present and future. He says he wants me in his life because  there isn't anyone else he would rather want to be with nor anyone else who would be willing to help him through this journey. I love him, a love I've never felt before. Any man who admits they were wrong and take responsibility for their actions and says they want and need help, deserves a 2nd chance.


Many have seen and "Liked" my relationship status change on Facebook. I have to laugh. He was the one that initiated it. I thought it was a bit pre-mature but he wanted to show to the "world" and me that he's in this. Silly I know, but kinda cute at the same time. I'm still really shaken up by the whole week but I feel a ton better knowing that it wasn't fake, it wasn't pretend. It was real and is real.  We will be taking baby steps together. He needs to be better and if I want to be honest with myself, I need to be better too. We all are a work in progress. I am willing to be patient and help him through that process. Thank you for your prayers, positive thoughts, and overall just being there for me. If it wasn't for my friends and family, I wouldn't have made it through this. I am lucky and blessed in so many ways.

"We come to love not to the fine the perfect person, but learning to love an imperfect person, perfectly."