Adjusting

Feeling a bit unsettled today. My head and my heart are still trying to adjust back to "Normal" after the system shock I endured last week. We were able to talk through some things and I felt good about the dialogue we had, but I still feel a bit insecure of where we actually are at. In any relationship, there are risks. Sometimes things will work out, but there is also the chance that things will fall apart. I tend to listen and  follow with my heart. Not because I am desperate for love and I NEED things to work out, but because I give 100% when I am in a relationship. Perhaps this is my biggest fault as a person? One of the MANY things I have learned from past relationships and experiences is it takes two people who WANT to be together and are willing to put in the time and energy to make things work. He says he's in it. Lord knows I am in it too. But I still feel afraid that tomorrow he will wake up and system shock part 2 will happen again. I think it's a legitimate fear to have.  Either way, I feel he is worth the risk. He is worth fighting for. He is worth loving.  He is worth potentially getting my heart beat up all over again because at least I can say I tried. I just hope he thinks I am worth it, too.