Friday, May 17, 2013
Heart
My anxious thoughts and feelings are starting to subside surrounding the little hick up Robert and I had a few weeks ago. Each day that passes, my heart grows to love him even more than the day before. His actions match his words which has been the re-assurance I've been needing to hear and feel. He holds my hand when we are in public. He greets me with a hug and kiss and manages to hold on just a little bit longer with each embrace. He sends little text messages that make me smile, laugh and realize how thankful I am that he is mine. And last night, as we were out to dinner I got the biggest re-assurance of all. We were talking about the last 6 months and how he never imagined himself being at this point with me. He openly said that he never wanted a lasting relationship with me, but somewhere along the road he fell for me and fell hard. He said: "The heart wants what it wants and I couldn't dismiss that feeling." I love him. A love I've never felt before. It's exciting but terrifying. Even in my state of love, I feel my eyes are still wide open. Things could easily fall apart again, but as I have said before, he is so worth that risk and it appears I am too. What a wonderful feeling.
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That's amazing, Jess! The exhilerating and sometimes brutal part of love is the fact that you have to put it all out there and TRUST the other person with every vulnerability, imperfection, insecurity and most of all with your heart. There is never a guarantee that your partner won't hurt you. After 17 years with the same person, I have had my heart so full of love I felt like it would burst, broken into a million pieces, glued back together so it was stronger than before...you get through it and it all comes down to trust. So happy for you :) Wishing you nothing but the best for a happy life together!
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