It's a choice

I've been sick the past 2 days. As crazy as this is going to sound, I think I may have gotten TOO much fresh air. My head is pounding, throat hurts, and sinuses are hatin' me right now. As much as I HEART Spring... Spring doesn't always heart me. With that said, I'm taking a pass on 30 by 30 update. Haven't had much of an appetite which means I most likely lost, but it wont be an accurate reading of my actual weight as I hope to be back to "normal" soon which means my appetite will be back etc... So... taking a pass this week.

I did want to call out something that I learned this week not only about myself but about life. It may seem simple to some, but for me it's something that I have struggled with for a LONG time. A LONG LONG LONG LONG time. I stayed home from work yesterday because I was feeling icky and worn down. I needed a rest day but noticed that my mind didn't want to rest... and it started to wander and think about things it shouldn't think about. I found myself getting sad. I started playing the what if game (which I always lose at!) I started thinking back on happy memories which then of course turned into me getting more upset because I kept saying "Why didn't it work out??! What's wrong with me??! What did I do wrong??! I should've been better!!" After about 10 minutes of torturing myself I said "Enough!" And chose happiness instead. I took a deep breath and smiled. Took enough deep breath and smiled again. It probably sounds silly... me staying home alone with my cat and just smiling randomly, but I'm telling you, it worked. The minute I stopped allowing myself to dwell and be sad and choose HAPPINESS and smile... I felt better. That my friends is progress. :-)

Besides being under the weather the past few days and my mini pity party episode yesterday... it's been a great week! Sunny skies, chirping birds, puddle jumping, and new budding friendships! :-) This girl can't really complain! She has way too much to be smile about and be thankful for to be anything but happy.