Guess what... I'm not going to reach my 30 by 30 goal. Unless I can somehow lose 22 lbs in 4 weeks, I am pretty much throwing the towel in on this one. I've been beating myself up pretty bad about it the past few weeks. Many pity parties. Many moments of looking in the mirror and picking a part all my physical flaws. Satan stole my joy. I dug myself into a big hole of self hatred. It wasn't pretty. It never is. BUT... I woke up yesterday morning and decided that instead of giving up on my 30 by 30 goal, I am going to modify it a bit. Lose 30 lbs within my first year of being 30. That means I have exactly 13 months to achieve this! Totally doable, right?! I'm down 8 lbs (ehh... yeah I gained 2 lbs over the past 2 weeks with my self loathing) so I only have 22 lbs to go. I can do this. I WILL do this. I will continue to check in with ya'll from time to time to keep you posted on my progress and also probably to vent my frustrations with the whole process.
Now onto to some other "News." I have decided to start running. Ugh. I'm not a runner. The Sparling's are typically slow moving objects. It's a fact that I walk faster than I run. I've tried to jog here and there when I've felt inspired to, but it was always short lived and I felt like I wanted to die afterwards. Everyone and their mother seems like they are running 5k's or training for Marathons lately. I admire their strength, courage, and determination to train and then successfully complete their races. A close friend of mine is a runner and she recently had a baby a few weeks back. Before her son was born she asked me if I wanted to train with her to run a 5k. At first, I laughed. Running a 5k seems impossible. I let the idea marinate in a bit and decided that I will commit myself to training and running a 5k sometime this summer. To some, a 5K may seem like no big deal. But to me, this is HUGE. I've heard wonderful things about the Couch to 5k training program and have decided to follow that as my guide. I had my first official "Walk/Run" last night and it went surprisingly well. I felt I paced myself well, but still pushed myself more than I thought I could handle. After my first training session I didn't feel like I wanted to die. I actually felt quite good. I felt accomplished. I felt motivated. I felt like I could continue to do this program.
Today is my off day. My muscles are tired and sore, but it's the good sore you feel after you've had a great workout. It's suppose to be 70 and sunny today so my plan is to at least go for a walk tonight. Stretch those muscles out a little bit more and just breathe in the beautiful weather.
Happy Friday!
2 comments:
I abhor myself.
However, I challenged myself to run a 5K before I turned 25 and I trained and did it and I was proud of myself.
I'll be honest though, I never ran again.
Sometimes I think we have to push ourselves out of our comfort zones in order to find an activity that really calls to us...for me running is not it.
I'm still in search.
I think I'd love to learn to play tennis...but that would require living near a tennis court, no such luck.
I can't wait to see how you do!
Have you chosen one to run yet or are you still searching? Have you heard of The Color Run? That sounds like it would be AWESOME to do!
Let's be honest, I didn't finish the Couch to 5k but what I did of it I did also enjoy it because it breaks it up and makes it more doable. Hon, if I can run a 5k you can too!!
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