Every girl needs...

I fell asleep to the pitter patter of rain last night. It aligned perfectly with my mood. Yesterday was a tough day. I was back from "Vacation" only to feel the exact opposite of refreshed. I'm really good at beating myself up over things. My mind gets stuck on something and I begin to play the "What if" or "If only I was..." game. I always lose.

I woke up this morning determined to be in a better mood. I let myself sulk for too long and it was time to pick myself up. I woke up earlier than I normally do and actually put some thought into my outfit. I spent time blow drying and curling my hair. I actually applied my make up vs. putting some bronzer and slapping lip gloss on. I thought by TRYING to look good, I could trick myself into thinking I felt good.

I work in the Design department at work. Everyone always looks so pulled together with their creative flair, color combos, and designer labels. Then there is me. I work for Target and 90% of my closet, is Target. I'm proud of my closet, but when standing next to Miss Designer Label, I feel like major frump girl. I feel there is a reason they put me in the back corner office. Though I have a view of Downtown Minneapolis, I kind of feel like I'm on permanent time out for fashion offences. (I kid).

I work with mostly women but there are the occasional token males but most of these males fit the male/ fashion stereotype. Male+Fashion=Gay. I love these guys. They are open, honest, and good listeners and most importantly, give you compliments!! Kevin is one of my favorite guys at work. He doesn't work in my department but I see him on occasion when I need to stop by the "Bullseye Boutique" to pick up stamps etc... We usually have a brief 5 minute catch up session and he gives me boy advice. He's an expert after all. Though I thought I was hiding my emotions well, he could see straight through me.

Kevin: Hey you... where have you been? Whats new?

Me: Just living the dream.

Kevin: You can't fool me... whoever broke your heart is an idiot and will regret letting you go.

Me: How do you even know I am feeling a bit heart broken?

Kevin: It's kind of like gaydar except for love.

Me: (Laughing)

Kevin: You look beautiful today. You always look beautiful but today I can especially tell because behind your pulled together look, I see your broken smile.

Me: It sucks, Kevin. I really liked him.

Kevin: His loss honey... onto the next. You need to go out tonight. You look too damn good  to not get out there again.

Me: If only it were that simple

Leave it to a gay man to fill my heart with hope and boost my confidence. Every girl needs a good gay boyfriend to pick you up when you are feeling down. I'm thankful I have my Kevin.