Hope Floats

As cliche as it sounds, life seems to only go by faster with each passing day, month, year. Let's reflect where I was a year ago:

1. I was in  the middle of my Condo madness. By this point I had lost my original buyer, and went through another 3 buyers. I was scared that the dreaded F word was going to happen but alas, buyer #4 found me and I FINALLY closed in August.

2. I started a new job as Director Admin. I went from supporting a team of 15 people to supporting a team of 150. Life was chaos, and still is. As much as I was ready for the new challenge, I was terrified. I struggled in my relationship with my new Boss and desperately missed the feeling  of being part of a team. After about 6 months, the ice finally melted between us, and 2 months later he announced his Retirement. Here I am today packing up his office and ensuring the last minute details are taken care of, and I'm actually a little sad that he is leaving. I learned huge lessons in being his Admin. I was pushed outside of my comfort zone. Learned to build a tough layer of skin and not show my emotions on my face (like I normally do). He was a good boss and he will be missed. My new Boss starts on Monday. I have every confidence that the transition with her will be seamless and flawless. She's personable, relateable, and friendly. All things I consider myself to be, so fingers crossed a  great working relationship will come about soon.

3. Remember P? Yeah, I haven't talked about him awhile. Well, a year ago we started talking. Went on our first date and thus began a whirlwind roller coaster romance. I fell hard for him and his daughter. There were red flags right from the beginning and those flags ultimately led to our breakup.  My heart was broken, again. A part of me thought that he could be the one, but you can't force someone to feel things they don't feel nor make them do things they don't want to do. I can look back at the relationship and be thankful for experience. I learned a lot about myself and even grew as a person. Though our break up wasn't ideal, the one thing he taught me was to never be sorry for how I feel. I haven't forgotten those words and often will catch myself when I start to apologize for things I don't need to be sorry for. I still think about him and his daugther. We've exchanged a few text messages in the past few months but nothing more. I am fairly certain he has a new girlfriend and I'm happy for him. I'm at peace with myself and let go of hurt I once felt. Now... there is E! Ironically we both showed up in each others lives around the time we were dealing with break ups. Though we are still just friends and the future is still unknown, I have every faith that only good things will blossom from this beautiful friendship. He says he doesn't read my blog but in the off chance that he IS reading this... You're pretty awesome, E. You make my heart go "Wheeeeeee" and bring so much sunshine to my life. Thank you for being you.

Life has a way of working out the way it's suppose too, doesn't it? Though there are ups and downs and all arounds, it's all a part of a plan that we can not control. All we are required to do is let go of the wheel and trust that our Captain will take us where we are destined to be. For once, I am excited to see what the next year will bring whereas before I was scared. The one word that still rings truth for me is Hope. I pride myself on that I've never lost hope in anything. I may be knocked down, kicked around but I always pick myself back up and keep pressing forward. Hope is always floating around my world and it will always remain to be so. Life is good. God is good.

Happy Friday!